Finally getting better!

Wow, so I was sick for like an entire week! No fun, no fun at all, although I did loose a few pounds! I guess that's what barely eating will do, of course that's not healthy. But when you're sick, about all you can handle is tea and egg drop soup.

I'm feeling good enough I might treat myself to a Lush bath tonight, maybe something cocktailed with the butterball I have. I need to resist the temptation I have to go to taco bell.

And thanks for the comments/emails, I appreciate them and the encouragement!

weighing myself in the morning...

makes me weigh less lol! maybe i'll use that number to feel like i'm down a few pounds. still sick, took the day off work i felt so bad. but got some chinese food which was soothing. played way too much wow, but eh, i was sick and it was worth it.

okay, off to bed.

Being sick sucks

So being sick and having a cold sucks. But at least I got to leave work early. Bad eating though. Made some healthy soup, which means I can eat good food for the next few days. Bed soon, hope I can sleep better than last night.

"I just need to start caring about myself"

So here I am, watching 'The Biggest Loser' and the quote above just caught me. It's what I need to be doing. I'm fat. I'M FAT. Not chubby, not chunky, but fat. 317 pounds of it. I remember crying when I went over 200 pounds, swearing I would get below and never go over it again. Now here I am.

My goal is simple. And incredibly difficult. Lose the weight, get to a healthy body shape. Over the last nine months, I lost 13 pounds. I paid almost $3,000 to lost 20, and gained seven of them back already. I know why, I quit exercising, and I quit eating healthy. I don't want to slide back and gain even more weight.

I know I can do it, but I know it will be hard. Today wasn't the best food day. But tomorrow will be better. It has to be. For me and my body and my mind.

Here goes, posting this out on the big bad world wide web. Even if no one reads it, I know it's there.