Interesting day

I played WoW again today. I was actually sick to my stomach logging in game and being online. I know it was from thinking of seeing the person who cut me to the quick so easily and effortlessly. Thankfully I didn't have to deal with that.

Now I don't think I can ever really go back though.

Tomorrow should be an interesting weigh-in. I did not do as well this weekend as I wanted, at least when it comes to eating. I did have a pretty good workout this morning though, I think due to my being upset about WoW.

Thanksgiving week (can't believe I'm going home that long!) will be hard. I know that I will come back having gained some weight, because I won't be at the gym, and there will be lots of tempting food around me. I am going to do my best though! It's all I can ever do. :)

The weekend commeth

Time of eating doom! I am going to do my best again, as this week I've pretty much been stagnant in weight. Back to where I was before last weekend (lol) but I'm still getting healthier.

I know the cardio is good for me! It was nice enough today to go for a walk outside. Man, going up that hill on the way back home is killer.

I have some cleaning to do tonight, so that should distract me a little bit. Doing the women's expo thing tomorrow; need to make sure I get to the gym beforehand.

A not so productive week :(

Well, this week didn't turn out as well as planned. I think my weigh in one morning was off, and due to not being able to work out and going out to eat with a friend, my weight is actually the same as it was on Sunday.

I'm close to 340 though, and my goal is to get there this weekend.

I know that I can do it, I also know that it will just take time. Hopefully being home over the holiday week will also not sabotage my healthy living too much.

Need to think about how to work out well there.

Close! And a day of snacking (grr!)

This morning when I weighed in, I was closer than I thought to 10 pounds lost! It is my first mini goal, and I'm so excited to reach it.

However, I snacked like mad today, Trader Joe's wasabi peas are evil! I suppose they are not that bad for me, but I also had mini three musketeers and too much chocolate at home.

I made a healthified version of my chicken enchiladas - they turned out good, but next time I won't go with the low sodium soup, just the low fat.

My workout at the gym was good; I pumped up the speed 0.1 mph on the treadmill. My foot was slightly sore by the time I got to the elliptical, but tomorrow I will be resting as I have Meals on Wheels and am headed to Jeremy's afterward.

Early bedtime for me today!

Weekend update

Well, the weekend went better than I thought! I was about to lose slightly on Friday, maintained on Saturday, and I got to the gym today.

I had a great time with my friend, though her life is so strange I have a hard time understanding it sometimes. Just so different from anything that I know.

I interacted a little (texting) with one of the catalysts for my lifestyle change. Still stings and hurts a little. Maybe this next weekend I'll have time to blog about it.

This week I start Meals on Wheels, so every other Tuesday will start to be a late night for working out. I'm not too worried about it though, because I know that I will still be going.

I'm getting close to 10 pounds lost - small milestones are the way to go. :) I'm hoping at Christmas some of my weight loss will be noticeable to my family.

Once I hit the 10 pounds, I may start transferring money into a new account to build up savings for either a trip or something more substantial, like a ring.

I count the weekend as a success!

The weekend!

Ugh! Weekends! Not a good time for me lifestyle wise. I can't get to the gym before it closes on Friday, so generally this has been my day off. However I have company this weekend, and don't think that I'll be able to get to the gym either tomorrow or Sunday. Well, Sunday is a possibility, but I'm still not sure.

I am really going to try and do well with my eating though, because I don't want to regain too much weight over the weekend.

I'm proud to say today at work that one of my friends asked if I'd lost any weight. She may have just been trying to flatter or encourage me though. I think the real test will be when I am home for the holidays.

Still meaning to blog about the main reasons for this, I promise myself I'll get to them soon.

Glee returns!

Hooray! Love this show so just a quick blog post during commercial.

Gym went well today; I am making progress slowly but surely. I suppose that is the only way to go now, and I will make my goal eventually. Losing an entire person is going to take time, that's for sure!

Talked to a friend from WoW last night, I do miss it, but I know I made the right decision for me. There was just too much pain and hurt each time I logged into game.

Drinking some peppermint honeybush blend tea - yum! Tea is for sure one of my treats. Will be getting more this weekend hopefully. I think soon I will set a reward for myself for a mini-goal. I can't decide if it will be time based or pound based.

Glee returns! *poof*

Progress so far

Well, I've lost about 5 pounds so far! I'm very happy about it. :)

The gym was super busy today; I had to switch up the order that I do my machines in! It was an okay work-out, but not my best. That's why there's tomorrow though.

I'm not really in the mood to post much, or to delve into the deeper issues behind my quitting WoW and my new weight loss push. I know they are still there though, under the surface and just waiting to be examined further.

I also want to go through some of the stuff from Bob's book; I think I saved some questions and answers that would probably be beneficial to examine again.

Cheers!

Evil Turkey!

I knew I would gain a little from the delicious pre-Thanksgiving meal I made over the weekend with friends.

I gave away the majority of the dessert, and also the stuffing. I will allow myself to enjoy the turkey and stuffing I have left, along with the spinach broccoli casserole.

Working on week two of the gym; I think it will continue to go well! I am motivated, and want to stay strong. I would like to see how well I can do on my own for at least a month; if things aren't moving the way I am hoping, I will look into some supplements or meal replacements.

I'm so proud of myself, I'll admit it. I am really working to change my life.

It wasn't as hard as I thought...

And now it's done. I cancelled my WoW account, and said my goodbyes. Of course the account is paid for several months still (*facepalm*), but I'm doing my best to make a fairly clean break.

I'm sure I will play a little bit, including the holiday stuff, because I'm a sucker for that. But I know I can't get sucked back into playing the way I used to play, especially if I am serious about changing my life.

Speaking of the changes I'm trying to implement, this morning marked the first full week of going to the gym completed. I made it six out of seven days, and I have to admit that I am quite proud of myself!! I know for sure that Friday will be a day off, because the Wellness Center isn't open past 4pm. I don't think I'll be ready to go to the main gym for a while, hehe.

Possibly more later, for now, off to cook and clean. :)

Warcraft

I'm sure I'll write more about this subject later, as I feel it has been instrumental in both my weight gain, and all the other things I've been dealing with the past few months. More on those later too.

I'm just posting to say that I finally cancelled my account. Of course, it's paid through April, but my plan is to basically stop playing after tonight. I even have the post written for my guild forum.

It's a sad feeling, I'll admit, and also a nervous one. I'm actually somewhat sick to my stomach. I know it's the right thing to do though. I might still play casually, though on another server. I hope that no one is upset with me for finally doing something for myself. I also hope no one makes fun of my goodbye post, because it is really written from the heart.

One of my favorite shows is So You Think You Can Dance, and this routine last night really spoke to me, considering the feelings I was and am still having about quitting.

Apologies for the link, I don't know how to link a video from youtube, but I promise, not a rick roll http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=31Hqa9YJAmQ

Starting over (and over again?)

Wow, over a year since I've updated this blog. And with good reason, since I haven't been doing good with my weight loss at all.

No one wants to post about their failures.

I think it's time I start though, because maybe it will help this time being the last time I start over.

I've gained weight in the past year, mostly from being inactive and eating poorly. I know, what a shock! That causes weight gain. Not really sure why I can't apply all the truths that I know.

The picture in this post is me a few months ago. When my sister posted it to Facebook, I didn't really think it was me. Amazing what hiding from mirrors and pictures can actually do to your sense of self-awareness.

I'm hoping to stay more on track with posting updates to this blog, if only for myself.

In the next few days I'll post more about what caused the latest wave of starting over, maybe it will be therapeutic.